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Wednesday, 11 April 2012

so i'm missing a few months of blogging...oops =/

hello xanga! it's been about three months since i last left an entry..lo siento =[ i guess i've been so busy pinning and tumblring and facebooking that i kind of neglected you =[

i'm finally doing well in school again...=[ and it's the time of the semester where i decide to slack off bc i'm TIRED!!! working 29+ hrs each week and going to school is no fun at all lemme tell you! it's taking a toll on me physically and mentally..and i haven't been to a gym in a really long time...i just get soo exhausted by the end of the day...

it's been kind of hard for me to talk to people lately...it's like everything i say just comes out no buenos =/ and i can't form sentences very well? maybe i'm just really bad at orating?? or forming words?? haha *shrugs*

james says that i'm hard on myself..i guess i am...i've been doing really well in my classes and on tests but when i make less than 100 i kinda beat myself up...i really should be rejoicing over the fact that i'm even capable of making an a on anything again! but instead i'm making myself depressed haha =/ something is definitely wrong with my noggin...

there was a tornado last tuesday...not this past tuesday but last week tuesday...actually, there were multiple tornadoes...=/ but i was in the library and they made all of us go to the basement/1st floor -____- i made my way to an empty spot and bam...this random dude starts asking me what i wanna listen to...and well...i did...and i know this sounds bad, but i really don't wanna make friends lol =[ i just wanna keep to myself...go in and out of class...like a fly on the wall! sooo GUARD UP! and -___- he's a psych major who likes to watch people and make observations of them.MASLDJLSDJFLSJFLDSJ

my sister is insane

both of them are

i'm tired.

Saturday, 07 January 2012

Crispy Kale Chips on the Food Network

http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/melissa-darabian/crispy-kale-chips-recipe/index.html?soc=share

Tuesday, 29 November 2011

solamente amigos

i haven't been updating...bc 1 - nothing to really complain about haha until now and 2 - the people in my life are good...a little kinks now and then....until at this point -

this is ridiculous...*shakes head* some people said that they were jealous...how did we make it work? how did we make the status transition from "in a relationship" to "friends"? let me tell you...it was all a sham! i got excited because i thought perhaps it was possible to be friends again! to go back to how we were before...*impossible*...i even tried to accept every little fault..bc that's what friends do! accept who the person is...did you know that gives them the slightest of smallest of hold on hope?? bc it did for me...and i am ashamed to say that i regret it...i messed up...

Monday, 22 August 2011

mis preocupacciones

the main worry right now is - did i get food poisoning? i don't really feel nauseated...and i'll be honest, i frequent the restroom quite often, but it's been happening more often than it should....umm...is it something i ate last night? haha -_- badddd...APPENDICITIS!??! jk...or am i?

grad school update: i have to apply as a special student so i can take these leveling classes so i can then move on to being a full on GRADUATE STUDENT! and then after that i can be a LAW SCHOOL STUDENT! =D i really want to stick to this original plan...bc it's what i really really want and i KNOW i am capable of it...*whew* okay....but i have to reactivate my application as a special student and i kinda messed up 0_0 speaking of which i should find that letter and get on it pronto

i need to schedule my mom's mammo too...oops -_- the friggin clinic said they would get back to me A LONG TIME AGO -_- time to get serious and get them on it!!!

i teach 5gl again! no more seventh grade...they...were a handful..lemme tell you! but it's weird how everyone goes "oh...you went down to 5th grade? aww..." it's weird how if i teach a lower grade level i'm being demoted! and going up in grade levels means promotion...i finally understand how it feels to be on the receiving end of that and honestly - i prefer it this way...so please, do not empathize or feel sorry BC -_- you wouldn't want to be in the position i was in...and it's not a promotion or demotion or whatever...it's just knowing what you're best at and i'm best with 5th grade! *sigh*...or maybe i'm not good enough to teach older kids...hmm...eh whatever!

job searching is pretty...harsh...to be honest...i've submitted x amount of applications and that means i get -x amount of responses haha..oh cruel cruel world! maybe this is a sign! that i'll get pretty serious with my school work???...

which comes to my next topic: being financially stable. i can barely take care of myself...should i even attempt school again? i hate being broke..i hate not being able to afford a single thing!!! =/ and i hate people feeling sorry for me...i don't want to be taken care of...i want to be the one taking care of people...i think that's my big problem - admitting the fact that i'm being taken care of left and right...so i am useless =[ or at least feel that way

so i think i'm gonna purchase weights and plug in the treadmill and take the initiative to cancel my gym membership!

and! i will learn how to whistle! DAMMIT!

but for the most part yay!! TO EARLY CHRISTMAS PRESENTS FROM WONDERFUL SWEET LOVING BOYFRIENDS! <3 hahaha CRUISE! in about six-seven days!! =D this time next week i will be ON A MOTHEREFFINGBOAT!!! maybe it's not so bad being taken care of hehe jk..

Tuesday, 09 August 2011

suspiros

job searching...

i heard back from uta...=/ and it seems a bit more hopeful! i see a little light at the end instead of complete darkness

hopefully these positions follow through - i go back to school spring 2012 so i can get these classes out of the way - finish that - apply to law school - hopefully get accepted and be on my merry way!

it's taking a little longer than expected but hey...gotta get started somehow right?

overall i've gotten lots and lots of support =]

i just got back from a cali trip and enjoyed that...now on to next trip: cruise! yay!